What will people say when they hear I'm a Jesus Freak?

Praying, thinking, holding onto faith, and listening are things that I am trying my best to work on. I think that I have realized that lately my Spiritual Growth has taken a back seat in the way that I look at the world and the way that I take action in my life. I've been saying out loud that I'm a Christian but the way that I live out my life are sending out two different messages. No, I'm not going crazy and I'm not talking about some alter ego that I have that I'm two different people around different people BUT I am saying that what I believe in my heart is not always shown on a daily basis. I was talking to a friend the other day and the topic of basically a "Jesus Freak" came up, and what that actually means. A lot of times today in the Christian community we look down on those who are "overly Christian" and I put that in quotes because after thinking about it I'm not too sure there is a such thing. I believe that a lot of the time I sit down and pray before a meal because I want people who are watching me to look at me and say "oh my goodness she is praying over her meal, what a great "Christian girl""instead of being authentic in the way that I talk and feel towards God. People who we would call Jesus Freaks are spreading the word of the Gospel to everyone they meet and I feel that it shows that they are not ashamed to say what they believe out loud and to me, sometimes that is a scary thing to do. I find myself in my head telling myself one thing, but then when I open my mouth another thing comes out.Temptation is one thing that we, as a Christian community need to look out for. I'm coming to realize that the idea of an accountability person in your life is something that will and is very helpful when it comes to your walk with Christ, and right now, I feel as though that is something that is missing. Another thing that I'm realizing is that you can't just continue to live on the things that you know, you have to begin to live on things that are proven to the be true. This means that you must begin to read the Word (the bible) and discover new things that the scripture is telling you and then MAKE THE CHANGE to follow that in your life. I think the second part of that, making the change, is the part that a lot of Christians get stuck on. So to be frank, my point is, I need to begin to worry about my Spiritual Life and I can NO LONGER let it take a backseat because with that in that backseat that means that something else is riding shotgun and that thing is not a good navigator.

So pray for me for two things:
1. That my eyes are open to a GREAT accountability person
2. That my ears are open to the things that God is trying to tell me!


One love,
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